allowing undoneness

One of the things I’ve had to work through on my journey of unwinding internalized productivity culture is my relationship to undoneness.

The intentional work of leaving tasks, projects, and goals undone, unmet, and unfinished.

...To let what I’ve done for today be enough -- simply because it’s what I had to give.

...To not judge myself for not getting as far as I thought I should + not beat myself up for “wasting” time.

...To notice when I’ve exhausted the day’s resources + energies -- and then put the creative project down + close my laptop for the day.

...To set my work down (even if I just started) when I notice I’m feeling activated, exhausted, or ungrounded so that I can tend to my nervous system first (+ continue to rebuild the trust I have with myself).

...And to allow the hard feelings to exist when any or all of that feels uncomfortable.

This has been deep work.

All sorts of resistance comes up when I do this.

It’s often taken intention to not push + not fight,

To remind myself that self-kindness is always the way -- and that a grounded + well-tended nervous system is always the priority,

And to remember that we’re not here to simply finish things; we’re here to live into an experience of aliveness + a process of becoming.

Life is always undone. It’s always unfinished + incomplete.

And that’s as it should be.

Because life is dynamic + moving. It’s alive + unfolding.

Just like us.

And when I choose to find + create enoughness, no matter the circumstances, I feel more connected to life + self than ever.

To be fully alive is to embrace the unfinished process of our own unfolding and remember that still, it’s enough.

We’re enough.

What might it look like to embrace that enoughness exactly where you are today?