I sometimes tell myself I’m not doing enough.

And that the solution is to do more + push harder.

That I would be a better person + have everything I wanted if I could just find a way to get to that magical place of "enoughness" that’s always out of reach.

My practice with this has been to pause + notice the pattern + not beat myself up for thinking this way sometimes.

And then gently shift to another pattern rooted in presence + enoughness + sufficiency.

One of the questions I’ve been asking from this space is:

What if everything I do matters?

What it's all a piece of a mosaic? A step on a journey?

What if there’s infinite possibility + magic in what we already have? In what we’re already doing?

These are questions that plug me into curiosity (rather than judgement + scarcity) + remind me there’s something deeper at work.

And that the efforts we make, the failures we experience, the experiments we try, the steps we take all matter in ways we see + in ways we don’t -- in ways we understand, and in ways that are a complete mystery.

So rather than being guided by the questions of: Is this enough? Will this get me the result I want?

I’m trying to ask: Why does this matter + why is it worth it, regardless of whether or not it feels like enough?

These questions keep me in the game, continuing to show up for myself, my dreams, my healing, and my art through the fear + uncertainty.

How about you? What matters most to you? And why is it worth it to keep going + keep trying?